tears

~F

i felt so numb when he told me

that he used to feel the same. 

honestly, i should've expected this, yet im shocked.

i should've taken him for him back then, and now i regret it.

but so much has changed and i don't think i liked him back then.

what was i expecting when i sent that text?

a bouquet of roses? a kiss?

~S

i felt this way almost a year ago,

and it was with a boy,

but the one i say i was in love with.

i told him.

i said that i liked him,

and i expected hugs and reciprocation.

but all i got was a "you're pretty, but i have a girlfriend."

and i couldn't let go, so i stayed and tried to convince him that i was worth something

this time, i won't stay. i will just let it go.

i will pretend nothing ever happened.

i will move on and be a better me,

i don't need a guy.

i don't fear rejection.

i will not stay

i do not want a guy

i will move on

i will pretend that nothing ever happened

i do not fear rejection.

liar.