Things I Can't Have

There are a lot of things I can't have:

You

Your love

Your care.

I shouldn't be allowed your smile

Or to ask you truth or dare.

I shouldn't be given your warmth

Or your adoration;

I can't be trusted with precious things

They're my annihilation.

I want you so badly

But I haven't earned you yet.

I did a lot of things

That maybe I regret.

I want to make it right

But every time I try

I only make it worse;

I have no alibi.

QueenBee

VT

14 years old

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  • Contrasting

    I have people who will hold me 

    Love me

    Splash me in sparkles and giggles and emails

    And I have people who will hurt me

    Snark

    Sarcasm

    Never really laughing

    Never really there

  • Take me away

    Just take me away from here

    Whisper stories of starlight and fire

    Water scrambling over rocks

    Iron in my eyes

    Just take me away from here

    To a fantasyland where it's us

    Just us

  • The thoughts I'd say

    You

    Don't get it

    Don't get me

    Where did the magic go?

    I literally do have to be the best

    You can't see outside your own opinions

    And I'm a hypocrite

    Following a faulty compass but