Thinking

thinking about you hurts me
but the fact that it hurts 
means I really did love you 
even if you took me for granted 
because if I had no connection, no love, no feelings for you then
I wouldn't be feeling anything now 
but I did
and so every time I hear your name
my eyes fill with the desire to cry waterfalls 
and my heart feels like it's been ripped out of my chest and squished under foot 
thinking about you hurts
because it used to feel good