Thinking

So I got in.

So I got in!

Isn't that a good thing?

I was expecting it.

I knew I would.

What chair?

I'm scared to ask

I know the answer

I know the answer is

Not good enough.

OF COURSE it's enough! everyone says

because here it's more than good enough 

I'm great.

There?

Out there.

Out there it's not and I refuse to settle so whyy is my audition not perfect?

Why am I not perfect?

Why is this random mystery boy everywhere and why is he always better, better, the best?

The kid with ice around the edges of how he spoke to me?

WHY?