Too fast

Every time I think I didn’t care

Every time I think you did nothing to me

But I can feel you

Creeping around who I’ve become

In my relationships

Beyond you -

I didn’t know how to do this,

And you were my first,

But that was not

Not what a

Not what it should’ve been

Not what I wanted

And so

I considered it normal

Maybe this is how you date people

Took your example

This time

And it means

I’m taking it

Too fast

Faster

Faster

Too fast
This is not

What it should be

This is fast

And I know it

Will burn out

Quickly

But I want to say these things

And I think I mean it

Do you?

And I am still learning

How to do this

So will you tell me

If it’s too much

Too fast?

Will you say it?

I don’t know how to do this

And I am trying to figure it out

Because my only example

My only one before

This

Was

Not something

I enjoyed.

I want to enjoy this

But

I’m scared it’s

Too fast.