Unanswered plea

I wish you would just punch me

It would wake me from this spell

The one that makes me think 

That maybe there’s a chance 

That you and me can be something

Something more that this
Maybe even-

I wish you would stop talking

Your voice of woven lies

One’s that promise safety

An escape from all things bad

But now i see it in your face

What you crave on mine

Why are you so scared?

Of softly whispered words

Or gentle touches in the night

Is it me? 

Have I done wrong?

Have I hurt you in some way?

You just dont get it do you

You stupid pretty fool

What you do to me is nonsense

I loath the way you look

With stupid dirt stained eyes

That make me feel like bugs

Searching craving scraps

Every word is a crumb of attention 

I wish you would take back

Would you please just spit it out?

If this is hate or love?

If you want to hug or fight?

Can’t you just be clear with me?

I’ve earned that haven’t I?