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Am I not good enough for you?

Am I not good enough for anything important?

I'm trying so hard to balance school and math packets that don't work and compositions that don't make sense

and I'm trying to chase my dreams

but it HURTS!

It hurts SO BAD

to be REJECTED

it makes me want to scream up at the sky WHY

WHY AM I DOING THIS

WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME

I'M TRYING MY BEST

and no one ever notices

no one will ever notice

living life by victories for other people

they aren't victories for me.

I will never be enough for myself

and I will never be enough for anyone else.

It's time I accepted it

took a busywork desk job

just... lived

I guess I'll just go through the motions

because I don't deserve anything better.