visual rings around my head

everything is so dark

and so blurry

like stars scattered everywhere and nowhere

I don't think I'm in control

something here is enlightening me

guiding my hands and my time and my mind towards the beginning of the end

the beginning of my end

I'm ending.

I'm done?

Is this it?

everything is so cloudy.

I can't remember the start or the end

the end isn't here yet but I feel it

no-one else here feels it.

But then who are you, who feels everything and nothing?

A tall, colorful and colorless stranger

Odorless and void of visual

I can't see you

I can only see your spirit

My spirit is leaking out of my skin

I'm hatching

I've done this before.

We've done this before.

I'm not sad, or scared, or angry

Or anything.

Or maybe I'm everything.

I can't remember the difference between my final form and what I've been all along

TheDemiDevil

MD

14 years old

More by TheDemiDevil

  • red lipstick

    one stick

    one swipe 

    that represents my love

    my adulthood

    so where is my lipstick?

    who's borrowing it tonight?

    who's borrowing my courage coat tonight?

    I need both to appear ready for anything

  • notes

    take note of everything I say

    my feelings are rooted in symbolism and poetry

    my femininity washes over me

    and a guilty realization sets in

    I get to play both parts in my head

    man and woman

  • limerence

    what can only be described as an unhealthy need for chaos

    chaos that fills an emotional void

    to be devoid of feeling is to loose your humanity

    your identity

    your self, and sense of self.

    I lost it once, too.