What am I doing?

What am I doing?

What am I doing?

I say I love this

and I like to think that I'm good at it

Am I?

I don't think so anymore

I forget to practice for lessons I dread

I get hyped up about sight reading but never put the work in

natural ability can only take me so far

and you can't be a natural at this

it has to be grown

it has to thrive and flourish

what am I doing with my life?

I need to step it up and I've said it before but

if I'm going to be there next year

be there be there

I am not right now

I am not not not not not NOT!

It's not a big deal but it will be soon

I can't just ride it out because I'm all high and mighty here

Vivaldi so what?

I'm not good enough

I'm not amazing

this isn't good enough

it's not amazing

What am I doing.

What

                  am

                                 I

                                                doing?