When

When did I become

the kid who skips Halloween?

The kid who asks

to be picked up early from parties

agrees in the first place only because

she feels obligated?

When did I become 

boring

being missed when I'm not gone?

I was so happy-go-lucky

in kindergarten I drew my pictures

made sense of the world

took care of my classmates

in first grade I had best friends

playmates

fun

in second grade I chased boys around

tackled them in snow forts at recess

played Pokemon like a boss

in third grade I played video games

never payed attention

got away with it

in fourth grade I wrote books

I wasn't cautious

I didn't care

I was me

in fifth grade I made friends

played

hung out

in sixth grade I built a friend group

I went everywhere

did everything

in seventh grade I expanded my circle

no limitations

something started to sink

I was falling...

now I'm crashing hard

back down to my life

the earth

the worst.

When did I become 

the kid who looks at life 

as her a duty to fulfill?