why

I don't have a favorite word, 

And I used to think I liked them all. 

But my whole body starts to fall, 

At the small whisper of why. 

 

Why are you crying?

Why do you hide?

Why do you lie?

Why, why, why. 

 

Every time that words explodes my mind, 

My whole body freezes up. 

And you say you've had enough, 

But so have I; I'm drowning. 

 

Last night, I actually smiled, 

It actually felt like he cared. 

He didn't make my life a nightmare, 

And sure what he said was hard; but it was easier. 

 

Easier than why, 

Easier than panicking behind open doors. 

Easier than crying on the floor, 

Easier than a simple minor chord. 

 

I can't find my voice, 

All the words are screams on the inside. 

I can't look into your eyes, 

And I'm feeling guiltier. 

 

Why, why, why, 

I hear that all the time. 

I don't know why I hide, 

I just want to be alone. 

 

It wasn't even two seconds after I woke, 

Before I even changed my clothes. 

You asked me why, a million times, 

And each time it makes me not want to try. 

izz_midnight

NH

16 years old

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  • observation iii

    We run back to your house,

    The lights are still on,

    And they cover your freckled face,

    Like it's the sun.

     

    The grass brushes our feet,

    And the wind catches in your hair,

  • observation ii

    We sit out on the sand,

    The fog covers the sky,

    And blankets the world,

    Like a shield. 

     

    The waves nip at our feet,

    The water's cold

    But I'm warm because you hold my hand,

  • observation i

    We stand on the dock,

    The sun has set,

    But I can see your happiness 

    Even in the dead of night.

     

    The streetlight's on,

    The metal is all rusted

    And covered in salt,