will i?

will i thank myself?
look back 
and love myself
because i made the hard desicion 
to keep going with it?
and suffer through my own discomfort
but most of all the discomfort of others
will i smile
and say
"it was tough, but it was worth it" 
will i?
or will i just end it later? 
versus stopping this ----- now? 
who knows. . . 
 

Inkpaw

VT

18 years old

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  • The Boxes In The Corner

    Looming over your shoulders

    Each stack higher than its former

    Every thought and every scrap

    Of an idea too scared to ponder

     

    Every moment that hurt

    Each minute that lingered longer

  • Inadequacy


    How do I push the words out
    From behind my taffy tongue 
    Thick with salty tears 
    And full of grubby thumb 


    I’m a child 
    Pretending that I’m numb 
    To escape the overwhelming feelings 

  • Paper Frogs

    Why

    When feet fall soft but quick 

    Does the hallway extend

    And the hot breath of whoever’s behind me feel hotter 

    Why do I stay pressed to the wall 

    Like a stubborn gruby sticker