You deserve to be happy

I want to make someone happy that destroyed my soul,

I want to make them feel,

they deserve to be happy,

and not think the entire world is against them,

because I'm not.

They broke me,

they tried to wrap up the slash mark that needed stitches with a 'sorry,'

the knife felt a little dull when I realized they didn't understand emotions,

cut deeper when they didn't understand me.

And still I think you deserve to be happy,

to be shown love,

I want someone to love you so deeply that you forget what it felt like not to be,

I want you to forget what it feels like to be sad,

I want you to be high on life and never come down,

I know you think it would be easier to leave this life,

but would you be happy in the next?

Because I don't think you would be,

you don't know how to be happy because you were never taught,

I want to teach you.

You didn't do what you did to me because you hate me,

or because you're mean,

or a bad person,

even though you have said to me that you're a 'bad person' many times,

you're not though.

You hurt me,

and I know you knew what you were doing,

but it wasn't because you wanted to hurt me,

It's because you were scared of feeling,

you were scared when things started going right,

because things don't go right for you,

so you left.

I kissed your scars,

and then you gave me mine,

but still I wish for you to be happy,

I wish for someone to be gentle with your soul.