Jeremiah its been awhile
That it has been
I've noticed your trouble
Of course you have, you're me and I'm you.
What gives with you?
What do you mean?
You know exactly what I mean. Where is it?
Its lost.... It was lost a long time ago.
Well you better find it because you're purposely killing us.
Maybe it's not as easy as you say.
It is, Jeremiah, you just don't want it to be.
I DO!! Because if it was easy I would've fixed it by now!
Listen Jeremiah, it's as easy as a liberty. Everything is hard when you don't look for a solution.
Tell me the truth Lozada, have you even tried?
So now you're lying to yourself AND your conscience. How pathetic. You can't even trust the one who completes you.
SO WHY DON'T YOU GO FIND IT!!
You're asking a figment of your persona to go find something that you lost, maybe you've lost more than your happiness. Perhaps your sanity as well.
I'm as sane as I've ever been.
If so, show me your happiness. Show me the Lozada before all the staged anger, all the fake issues that have made you into the freak of nature you are now.
I SAID I LOST IT.
There's a fine line between "lost" and "locked away."
So what if it is locked away?
Open it, Jeremiah, you're manifesting this vile engagement that doesn't have to end with an eternal relationship with wrath.
I... said I'm fine....
That's the most petty thing I've heard you say.
Jeremiah look at you, you're arguing with a creation of the mind over a conflict that isn't as defective as you think, a conflict that has a simple solution, which is to stop being such a weak-willed person and live happily. Live knowing that everything gets better even if it doesn't feel like it in the moment. Jeremiah I'm not going to lie to you, there's no point but at this rate I see you by 25 with your feet hovering over the floor with a knocked over chair in your apartment.
........ Th..That won't happen I'll overthink it and not do it.
Not when you've willed your mind into a decision over 10 years. By then you'll think it's the only way.
Was that too harsh. Well you ne-
-eeded to hear it. I did. I know I blow my issues out of proportion.
Because I don't know how to deal with issues. It's something that I'm not used to. I'm too scared to remove the training wheels.
Well you have to-
Start, I know and I officially have, from now on I ride on two wheels down the path called life now that I know I'll never forget, how to ride this bike
I'm proud of you.
Don't be, we are one in the same, you are me and I am you, now I must say farewell. I am glad that you once again opened my eyes this time forever.