How do I say

Why do you love this?

What makes you keep doing it?

 

I am always asked these questions.

How do I tell them

How do I say

That sometimes it's the only thing that matters to me?

The only thing I can cling to,

Cling to my own happiness?

How do I say I can't fall asleep without it,

I can't live without it,

Because how could I ever,

When it's such a huge part of me?

It just is.

I am music.

Music is me.

It's my way of being -

Existing -

Being myself.

How do I say just looking at it,

Not as another project or something to do

But as a story,

Something to tell,

Something to show,

Brings me joy?

How do I say I perform

Whenever I can

As scared as I am

Because I need to be a soloist one day

And I want to be

Or

Even just be part of something bigger than me?

How do I say it's all I am?

 

Why do you love this?

What makes you keep doing this?

 

How do I say I do it

Because to me there's nothing else in the

World

I would rather do?

QueenBee

VT

13 years old

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