Next to you

Next to you

Not a big deal

Natural

Normal

Eyes

Joking

Teasing

I could touch you

The bracelet on your wrist

Our bracelet

I could talk to you about it

I'd lose my train of thought

I'm scared of being close to you

Because I don't know

If you wouldn't like it

Or if it's weird because me thinking you'll be weird about it makes me weird about it

And I like being able to think straight

And I can't

With your eyes on me

Dark brown on hazel

Like

Magnets

I want to write my fanfics

My fantasies

Even though I know they'll never happen

I don't know if I want them to

I'm scared

We have the emotional

Mental connection

Physical...sort of?

I don't know if I want that

I don't know

It's hard to say what I mean in person

I love you

Is it friend love

Or in love?

What is love?

I was told there is no should 

But without should I don't know what to do.

Can't figure out my next words

It's time to go

I think I mean them

Do you?

 

QueenBee

VT

14 years old

More by QueenBee

  • Festival

    Long day

    past where morning sun shines and into the dark huskiness of night

    fluorescent lights beating down 

    then flickering off

    a fanfare

    a reflection

    a redemption

  • Instincts

    Some things are just instinct

    like when I just ran to you

    as soon as I saw you

    and hugged you for -

    oh yeah -

    the first time

    very very platonic of course

    you're my big brother.

  • Flying solo

    Your solo is like sun shining through the clouds in my heart

    it's like a platonic ballad

    it's like you are playing

    through first loves

    and forbidden loves

    and grass in the summer

    and crunchy chips