Stargirl

This is a little thing I wrote during a class I was supposed to be listening to, just completely overwhelmed by life....for me, this is a tiny piece of what being a teenager feels like...

Autumn city streets line my mind, you are silver next to me, a reflection…

Falling leaves send me flashes, everything wanted leaves me pacing, breathless, missing something I do not have …

There is a way this world settles

In which light and dark are both transparent.

The marks people leave upon this world are too often scars.

You don’t get to choose if you get hurt,

She told him to run.
Snapshots of her twirling in the firelight, 
her hair looking as if she'd caught the sparks, she 
told him to run. 
She told him to run and her whispers 
haunted his mind.

This world and this life are so complicated. I only say this because i know it to be true.
None of my teenage years have been normal, or easy. And some of these complications, ive brought on myself.

Im finding out things. 
A list of them, 10 of them, all neatly lined up.

1. Change is hard, it hurts, there are good parts and there are parts where you say fuck this. But there are still good parts.