Gabby Chisamore

It's been almost a year now,
Since I left you.
And it's been one of the best years of my life. 
I am a completely different person from who I was then.
And I like it this way. 
I'm sitting in my power now, 

'Open your heart to me'
The words on the oracle card stare back at me
as I sit in deafening silence. 

"My heart is open to you"
I whisper back to the card.

Because it's true,
my heart is open to you.

Just as I thought I had everything about my sexuality figured out,
you waltzed right in and turned everything upside down. 
I thought I had finally found my label,
finally figured out that I only liked women. 

I always seem to find myself in these types of situations.
Pining for someone I can't have. 
It's silly really,
that I have feelings like this for one of my best friends. 
But regardless,
I had a dream of you.

Flirting has never been my strong suit.
Always too shy,
Too subtle,
Too clueless.
However, with you it's different. 
I'm confident,
Say the right words at the right time,
Subtle endearments. 

Sometimes,
When I lay on my back on my bed,
My legs hanging over the edge,
Starring up at my colourful fairy lights,
As music softly plays from my record player,
I feel like someone else.