Fainting Goat

I tried to be better

But you made me feel worse.

I tried to improve

But you held me back.

I tried to climb up

But you tore me down.

I tried to be enough for you

But this could never be.

There's a wall in front of me.

Too tall to climb.

No room to crawl under.

Too long to go around.

All I have is a plastic spoon.

So I chip away at the wall.

I've been chipping away for years.

Well I open that door and here comes the rain

The rain of ashes and new possibilities.

See, there’s a boy I like and he likes me back and he said he’d meet me at the park today.

Strong and sweet.

Beautiful and neat.

Supportive and kind.

Who helps me keep my mind.

My very best friend;

Turns dark days bright.

Yet I worry;

They may be losing the fight.

First I see a raven,

Strong and dark.

Now I see an eagle,

Majestic and mighty.

Now I see a crow,

So similar to the raven.

Now I see a feather,

Alone and indistinct.

Finally I see the birds.

His hair, his eyes.

How I love his smile, his laugh.

So funny, so sweet.

Always making me smile, and giggle.

But I’m trapped in the friend zone.

He’s so much more to me, but I’m just a friend.