M. Hank

M. Hank

VT

15 years old

Posts

  • Different

    You were supposed to be different.

    The one that I didn’t have to give up on.

    Someone that I could rely on.

    But I turned my back and you chose her.

    She who wounded me with words and threatened to do worse.

  • Malady of Mistrust

    Cursed.

    Am I cursed?

    Cursed to tie myself to people, swearing that they’re going to be different.

    Only for resentment to grow like ivy, sentencing me to a place of discontent.

    I’ve called it paranoia.

  • Green

    When I think of the color green, I think of the trees behind my school. In kindergarten, when kids were cruel and words hurt more than sticks or stones, the trees were there.

  • I made tea

    I made tea this morning.

    I put the leaves in, watching the steam dance with childlike wonder.

    I returned to my laptop, staring at a half finished chapter, the bags under my eyes more apparent than ever.

Loves

  • I wanna be a literary girl

    & walk around soho with maxi skirts & matcha & annotate the bell jar in velvet blue ink on curling pages with garamond font & wear my hair long down my back & dark sunglasses pulled up on my head & bangle bracelets that sli

  • Still A While To Go

    I was so quiet then, 

    standing all alone against the concrete wall 

    in ill fitting jeans 

    with an awkward bob made of my soft blonde hair. 

     

    I listened instead of speaking 

  • Really?

    How can you say that you are a provider of justice?

    You pledge loyalty to sin like it's a hobby 

    just to turn around with a cross in hand

    and sickly smile in the next.

    So explain to me how you should get to decide

  • When will it be my turn

    when will it be my turn 

    when will it be my turn to be loved 

    when will it be my turn to be told i'm everything to someone 

    when will it be my turn to feel pretty, otherworldly, stunning

  • love

    what is it?

    i've always found it

    confusing

    why

    are we tied to

    one person

    only

    why

    is romantic love

    more important

    than friendship

    why

    do i push people away

    yet long