raincity

I should have stopped before sadness was nesscessary
sadnesscessary
was a good name for an album I guess. 
I knew I should've given up long ago.
It would've saved me so much trouble. 
Was it good for me?
New and real?

I wish I found some local friends,
local friends who'll stay
I don't wanna love and leave anymore, I'm over it.
and I can tell they want to be over me 
and they can't.
my "real friends" make big deals about my problems 

Feet aching, hair stringy and heavy.
My voice is blown out, but I couldn't stop shouting if I tried,
Shouting out lyrics I must be getting wrong. 
All around me, are people of any age, race, and gender,

Why do you give them false reasons to believe you, 

When we all know what you did?

Why want a war, the end to so many lives?

For what?

Land you don't need?

I won't sing my favorite song for you,
oh that dear, you'll never know.
The red blush on my cheeks drips off,
like powdered sugar in the rain. 
I forget my problems,
like you.
and I listen, 
for a call to something,

I'm waiting, 
silent,
for a time when I can't see my breath again.
Warm, not fuzzy,
just happy,
just for a little while.