Inkpaw

lyrics of devotion
spilling from these lips of blue
like tides drifting in and out
your non interest strangling me
oh what a thought
an ocean of words to describe you 
and me just floating on the surface
pen in hand

confusing
people rushing around
looking for things they know aren't there
but praying desperately that they will find them anyway
facts jumbled and mixed up
with rumors 
and numbers I look at with disbelieving eyes

i just want to collapse on the floor
and drown myself in all the words
that pour out of me 
and wrap me up in their meaning
suffocating me in the silence
pain i can't fix with medication 

this world is built on pain
and hurt
and the harsh animalistic natures
of equally harsh and cruel people
and hope.
this world is built on the broken shards of old things
patched together with love
into something new

the rain taps against my window
and the heater next to my bed hums along
as the cloud filtered light from the overcast sky 
comes peeking through my closed blinds

I hug my faded sweater closer 

one teen 
in a world of dramatic movies
and overly exaggerated fairy tales
set their heart somewhere they know they shouldn't 
opens it up
and leaves it vulnerable to the heartless whims of others
a while later