JayJay

The ocean is so beautifully blue

Yet it's also black when it goes too deep

The ocean is so calming

Yet when swept beneath its waves, it's suffocating 

Dolls, who you dress up in pink and white, 

dolls, who you take to the park or on a flight, 

dolls, who are made of plastic and cloth, 

they are always so girly, never unique or even goth.

I used to wake up and just watch you breathe,

I'd see your face and smile; we were in love. 

It hurt me in a way that I would seethe

Every time I saw you and I've become

A monster who covers all of their scars,

• Add a little bit of truth in the mix
• Bury it in cups of sentences
• A pinch of darkness
• Stir in that liter of death, himself
• Teaspoon of loneliness
• Knead together the memories of the last twelve years

I must leave the past behind.

I can't hold on to it any longer.

I must walk away from the past if I want a good future...

I must walk away from the past if I want to be free...

i don't feel good

i think i'm hungry

'you feel fine'

says the almost mute voice in the back of my head

'this is normal'

i guess it is

i don't feel good

i think i'm fat