nothing.gold.can.stay

look into your soul
find nothing
empty
a stone statue of solace
think
push through the fog
this should be easy
you should try harder

i used to be so hopeful
so ambitious
i was a bright child
bright future
inevitable success
somewhere along
this 
time worn trail

i know
i'm rooted
an insignificant dot
a speck in the timeline 
of the cosmos

but the pain i feel
transcends reality
there has to be a plan
fate

if no one will

I see your brown eyes and
my head spins
are you smiling?
or filled with disdain?

do you smile at my messages?
or brush them away?
am I just a
distraction?

I know there's more to life
than you

she fades away as fast as she appeared
no one mourns the living
the barely alive

her
worth
is defined by
her face
the same face that contorts into silent screams 
when no one is looking
caring