Stargirl

i am of the sea, the stars, 
Fire
Of apple slices and flip flops, of flowers worn in dark curly hair
And the smell of soap....
i am of candles melted almost all the way, of heartbeats that come in waves, 

i’ve been wandering the river for awhile now

My toes whispering against its edge

i am lost and alone

A fifteen year old girl

Barely into high school, barely out of it

And there is worry, so much worry

So then

I guess this is it.

Here I am, 

Here we are. 

This is what this world is now I guess, 

A broken heart trying to beat and force out the broken glass

I had a conversation tonight
with the Man in the Moon
I sat on the porch in my rocking chair
Everything was a distorted ghostly color, 
the perfect air enveloping me
was no longer rippling, no, in this light
it shimmered.

This summer
I drank flavored seltzer, clashing with ice cubes
Layed on the couch and in the grass with friends
our limbs tangled and intertwined

This summer
The overbearing sky and my skin

On Monday mornings

Usually when it’s raining

I see her
Long blond braids 

Tied with red, red that

Matches her raincoat, red

Like bleeding poppy flowers, red

Like Elton John lyrics