AHHHHHHH

I keep wondering if something is wrong with me,

Because I can’t seem to understand.

And I don’t want to be the person that only writes about crushes and drama,

I’m not shallow don’t worry.

Yet here I am,

Because I can’t seem to understand what love is.

And it’s not like I’m not loved,

That’s the opposite of the truth.

My friend said I had a chance with him,

But how can he like me,

When I don’t even like myself.

And I don’t want to think I’m not enough,

I’ve been through to much for that.

And it’s not like I’ve never dated, 

I’ve been told I love you and heard my name on his breath,

But it’s not like I know how to love another again.

I can do it I know I can,

I just don’t have the guts,

Why the fuck does it matter so much that I’m not beautiful.

And I’m not saying I’m ugly,

It’s more like I’m not Taylor swift,

More like the girl in those teen movies before they get a glow up, 

Only I have more confidence.

And I’m not sure where this poem is going anymore,

I just wanted to rant because I can’t seem to understand,

The culture of dating in high school.

Posted in response to the challenge Teenager: In Writing.

Amelia_v

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18 years old

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