After All of This

It's only February  

and look at this world.  

I want to know if we'll 

get through all of this. 

And on the other side,  

will I still be standing, 

or will I keep falling like I am now, 

and I'll fail my way out of college 

and out of high school 

and out of life?  

In the past couple of years 

I've been thinking about getting a flat 

with my best friend in London 

after we've graduated. 

Now the idea seems more compelling;  

we could get away from all this. 

I'd rather live in the monarchy 

than in this twisted form of democracy. 

Is it bad I don't want to hear the news? 

Not when it sends me crying on the floor.

How is it I can still feel guilty for just living?

I don't know,  

but I know we now lock our bedroom doors. 

After all of this,  

will we still be alive? 

I'm too young for it. 

Hello 2025 ...