all at once

Overwhelmed

by everything unexplainable,

everything that can't be put into words.

There is too much that needs to be let go

so it comes out silently,

but is never fully gone.

Suddenly my bed has never felt more comfortable

my ceiling has never looked more beautiful

the darkness has never felt more comforting

my tiredness has never been more exhausting.

Tired from everything I don't understand

tired from ridiculous expectations

tired from my own expectations

that I refuse to lower

because

I don't know.

Pressured by no one but myself,

overwhelmed by everyone but myself

because I forget that these expectations

are mine

and not someone else's.