thoughts are louder at night

The silence of 11 pm 

combined with the clicking of my keyboard, 

rushed typing, like i 

have somewhere to be. 

fingers lightly tapping across 

the keys when 

my mind goes blank. 

but it's not really blank,

open tabs telling

me what i actually

have to do.

The sound of my thoughts

drowns out the 

late night silence,

the abrupt creaks of floors,

doors,

the washing machine.

A car just passed by.

I wonder where it was

going this late.

At night.

Fingers still tapping while

another wave of deafening thoughts

floods my mind.

The tabs still stare,

I hear them yelling at

me to come back.

But my mind screams louder,

no.

NO!

Room still quiet.

But my mind won't

keep it silent.