anticipatory joy

Anticipatory joy – the feeling of knowing good is coming.

i know it isn’t for sure yet–but i can almost feel it

the way the snow whispers down my back 

and the night sky is gray, almost shining

and although it is getting colder

and colder,

the feeling of good

is less 

so when i do feel it

it is glorious

pressing your nose up to a frost stained glass

drinking hot cocoa

feeling that great feeling 

of being so happy 

it almost makes me want to cry

i used to never feel happy

the world is in a hard place right now

as am i 

and my loved ones

but feeling that great joy

that is good enough.