human being

last year,

I did a school debate 

of why 

trans athletes should be able to play in sports

I lost

and I cried

because my teacher

let us pick topics

no person that age should have fought over

it was too overwhelming

that overall

the idea and the 

subject

lost.

I am nonbinary

genderfluid

flags and pronoun pins

swirl for me

too confusing

in waves of rainbow and black and white

no one passed to me at lacrosse,

no one patted me on the back at field hockey

and they still

judge me

for being a human being.