A bottomless pit of expectations

My life, 

is a bottomless pit of expectations.

There are so many things

that people want from me.

And it's tiring.

My dad expects me to be perfect at sports,

My mom expects me to have perfect grades,

My friends expect me to be their therapist,

My brother expects me to be his best friend,

My teachers expect me to have my life together,

I try,

And try,

And try my best 

to be what they want me to be.

I try so hard,

but is it not okay to ask for a break?

Is it not okay to have a break from this bottomless pit of expectations?

don't want to be perfect at sports,

hell, I don't even want to play!

I don't need to have my life together,

I shouldn't have to have perfect grades,

And I don't want to be my brother's bestie, 

or to be a free therapist for my friends.

I just want a break.

But I suppose,

that's too much to ask.

So instead, I'll ignore the weight,

of the piles,

and piles more,

of expectations being piled on me.

And I'm stuck, falling into a bottomless pit.

Futaba

VA

13 years old

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