Confessions

How can you not see,

The true feelings deep in me.

The hard ache of hiding,

It's still not subsiding.

Lying to myself 

"Just put the thoughts on a shelf."

Please stop pretending that you can't tell,

Long ago from that high horse I fell.

I'm sorry it didn't work 

But I now you know.

And I can't stand to mask it anymore 

 

I'm not a girl.

I am not Branwen.

I'm somewhere in-between 

And I know that I am Bee

Bee.Lover

VT

16 years old

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  • Nothing anymore

    For years when I would look at your face, I saw my future, my life, my whole world in your eyes, but today I for once just saw your face. The same lips that I had once longed to kiss, the same eyes that I would get lost in, yet I felt nothing.

  • Counting backwards

    I'll push my dull heart down

    Anytime you need me to

    And you'll never hear me

    Beg you under my breath 

    Not to leave me

     

    You looked at me

    Like I'm a horrible 

    Burden just now

  • On a scale

    I look in the mirror 

    Like any girl my age

    But I'm repulsed in horror 

    At what is on stage

     

    I look at those numbers 

    Wait for them to go down again 

    114, 113, 112