Easily forgotten

It was what, four and a half weeks ago?

sometime after school ended

I wanted to stay for the whole time

I brought snacks for everyone

bagel chips and hummus

I didn't really think that anyone was going to eat the hummus

mainly just go for the bagel chips.

I got there a little late

like I do with everything

dropped off the snacks with everyone else's snacks that they brought to share, too

hung out with my mentally and emotionally draining friends

basically sat bored and slightly frustrated -

there were a few arguments going on with some other people there -

nibbled at the burgers they made

I basically only ate a handful of Doritos the entire four hours.

At the end

everyone's parents had come in

my dad was chatting with someone else's parent

I saw on the table

the unopened bag of bagel chips

it was no big deal that my friends didn't notice it

but it sliced me

not in half

but a part of me was lost then

I felt like the bag of bagel chips

I feel like the bag of bagel chips

unopened

untouched

unnoticed

even though I was

right

there

in front of all of their faces

it went to show

how little my friends noticed things

honestly, how little my friends noticed me

like on other occasions

I'm the person that people don't know the whole backstory about

I'm easily forgetful

no one in that group goes out of their way to talk to me

what am I doing

hanging out with people who don't really like me?