Exhaustion

Exhaustion

Like a blanket

It makes it hard to stand straight

Or say what I believe

It gets you sick

With mistaken beliefs

Because your courage to fight them has gone with your energy

The light inside of me

Dims

I stumble through the front door

One step

In front of the last

Tell myself

To just

Put mint toothpaste 

On a brush

And do this one last thing

No dinner, tonight

And then I fall

Eyes closing

Until dreams

Of monsters 

And marshmallows

And beauty

But when I wake, 

I’m still tired 

And eleven hours

Lost in a void

Of pictures and sounds and shapes

Does nothing 

Or so it seems,

This 

Exhaustion

I cannot escape.