Golden Years, Falling Tears

I always thought it would be like the movies

Beach trips and ice cream

Field trips and cheering on sports teams

Late nights with fairy lights

My first kiss

That feeling of bliss

It’s not

The only late night I have

Is when I’m finishing homework

And instead of going to the beach

I’m stressing and studying for a test I know I’ll fail

It’s fatal

I’ve heard that these are the years

For joy and laughs but all I know is tears

The tears that soak my face late at night

And the ones that stain my makeup in the school bathroom

Everyone says that I should treasure this time

So I smile and say that I’m fine

No one catches my lie

Enjoy it while it lasts

I hope it doesn’t last

When does it just become the far far past

They say it’s great to be a teen

Were they ever one

Because all I know is

Late nights and contemplating my fate

Bad grades and tears that stain my face

Panic attacks and headaches

Crushed crushes and heartache

The golden years

The teenage years

The youthful years

But all I want is to disappear