As Good

I want to sing like my best friend

Who effortlessly makes people sway with her voice

I want to dance like my dance teacher

Who makes every move look graceful

I want to write like my favorite author

Who makes me laugh and cry all at once

I want to draw like my mom

Who's doodles look better than my best attempt

I want to look like that girl on Instagram

Who always looks perfect

But I'm not my best friend

Or my dance teacher

Or my favorite author

Or my mom

Or a fake girl on Instagram

And I'm sick of striving to be someone else

Someone who has spent countless hours improving and editing their craft 

Someone who I will never be

And I will never do something the same as they do

Because we are not the same

And maybe I'll dance as well as my dance teacher

Or write someone else’s favorite book

And maybe I won’t

But I’ll never know

If I give up because I’m not as good as them right now

bumblebea

VT

14 years old

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    How to feel 

    I don't understand

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    But I did

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    And stuffing my face with candy

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    Shrivels leaves

    Rips them up

    Soon the ghosts and ghouls will scream

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