Happy Medium

I should be nice to look at

Presentable

Effortless 

It shouldn’t look 

Like I spend hours in the morning

Getting ready

Because that’s conceited

And no one likes a girl

Who is full of herself

I should wear makeup 

To cover up my blemishes

And the circles under my eyes

But all natural 

Because it shouldn’t look like

I’m wearing layers of

Concealer

Blush

Highlighter

Even if I want to

Even if it makes me feel good 

I should wear nice clothes 

Not ones that

“Hide my figure”

But I most definitely 

Shouldn’t flaunt it

Because no one wants to see that

Or they do

And I should protect myself from their gaze

I should be smart

Because if I’m not

I’m a dumb girl

I shouldn’t be too smart

Not smarter than the cool smart boy 

Because I’m not a nerd

And girls aren’t even that smart

I shouldn’t be meek and quiet

But I definitely shouldn’t share my thoughts

My opinions 

Because then I’m loud

And annoying

And no one likes a loud girl

I should be able to find

The happy medium 

I should just know it

But I don’t

And apparently that’s a problem