Hopelessly Lost in Other World

I too have been deemed an other, 

The other remains the sane; 

For the sister to a brother, 

May be but the only main. 

I have traveled farther, 

Then those who may have not; 

But this dark that now I harbor, 

Fills lungs with sap-like rot. 

I other in a land that brims, 

With skies of sisters dancing, 

Though those that can contain their limbs, 

Knock down the others standing. 

In shock my body’s stuck confused, 

Its rigged stature haltered; 

And others sit while great amused, 

It's I who had just faltered. 

This other-world in other-land, 

I had once so revered, 

Has squared to me a brother-band, 

That's left me fallen tears. 

I wish that I could just compel, 

Myself to be the same, 

But mad instead of being well, 

I often come to blame. 

I don't believe that I have chose, 

The right way on; 

I’ll state my woes- 

I am an other through and through, 

I don’t think I may ever you, 

This may have been my one mistake, 

But where to go from here you say? 

Well I won't know- 

Just let me be! 

You’re clearly steady lost on me. 

But I can say with heavy frey, 

That I may never win this way.