I can't sleep

I hope you don't sleep.

I want you to have my nightmares,

the ones you gave me.

I want you to watch me suffer

as you have so many times before.

I want you to see,

and hear,

and feel

how you've ruined me.

Taking in my wails

as the others watch

'cause I'm the crazy one.

I couldn't collect myself;

help myself.

I could only lie down

and wait for it to all be over.

It's hard to wake up knowing it was all real.