Insanity

The hardest part

Wasn’t

Noticing the signs

Hoping they won’t notice the way they hurt you

Knowing they don’t care

Leaving first

Telling yourself to move on

I can’t pretend anymore

I’m not okay,

I’ve never been okay

And I don’t think I’ll ever be okay

But every day I’m trying

Every day I’m learning to love the flaws he hated

Every day I’m writing

I let the phone ring when he calls;

He’s done enough wrong today.

There’s a moment of silence,

Broken by the fourth FaceTime call.

I’m tired of the ringing;