Lulu_D

Lulu_D

TX

14 years old

Posts

  • Reminders

    There are many moments

    Where I don’t feel 

    Deserving

    Of the attention

     

    Today I’m reminding myself

    Of how far I’ve come,

    All the years I’ve spent

    Living in pain

     

  • Clinging To Sunshine

    I’ve kept every card I’ve ever received 

    For as long as I can remember

    People fade in and out of your life

    Eventually lost in the past, forgotten

    I read their letters after sunset

  • Scars

    I still hear their words in my head

    Constantly reminding me

    Of his brutal honesty

     

    “If you wanna starve yourself, go ahead,”

    “All my friends say you’re too ugly for me.”

  • Accepting the Truth

    The hardest part

    Wasn’t

    Noticing the signs

    Hoping they won’t notice the way they hurt you

    Knowing they don’t care

    Leaving first

    Telling yourself to move on

  • Insanity

    To remember

    Is to live in the past

    Unable to forget

    The wonder and happiness

    That emerged from the darkness

     

    To remember

    Is insanity

    To do the same thing repeatedly

Loves

  • The LGBTQ+ Center

    I went to the LGBTQ+ youth center for the first time.

    For a year 

    I stared at the website, 

    wanting nothing more than to go.

    When I finally went, on a Wednesday,

  • I don’t know, I’m sorry

    I don’t know.

    I’m sorry.

    I don’t know if I can do this.

    I’m sorry. 

    I don’t know if I can do this for much longer.

    I’m sorry.

    I don’t know if I can do this for much longer and I’ve been getting tired.

  • Too much

    I am 13

    I am in 7th grade.

    I like school. Most of the time.

    I am quite good at school.

    I'm in all the advanced classes offered. 3 years ahead in Math, 3 years ahead in my English vocab, and on the hardest History track.

  • I’m sorry

    I’m sorry that I wasn’t the rings to your Saturn,

    because Saturn had cracked into two;

    I’m sorry that I slipped salt into your sugar,

    yet your sugar was bitter, I cried too.

    I’m sorry that you never learned to care,