It's Not Some Game

I lay in bed at night,

thinking about my day.

For the mean whispers and comments hurt me

More than I am able to say.

 

The following morning is not better.

The sun is out, not a cloud in sight.

I wish my mood was like the weather. 

 

It's as if the mean comments and whispers get worse

And follow me wherever I go

It gets to a point where I feel

even more low. 

 

I want to talk to someone.

A friend, teacher, adult, just anyone. 

But when I want to speak,

It's like words go from some to none.

 

Depression and impulsivity take over my body. I run.

I run so fast I can't see.

What lays ahead of me is an adult.

A trusted one, in fact.

After we talk, she offers to take me back.

Eventually I agree.

 

I can't fight this alone.

All the feelings I've felt are like the keys on a xylophone.

All different and yet the same.

And that's when I realize, this is serious.

It's not some game. 

TrackStar123

VT

14 years old

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    Thoughts.

    Every day the thoughts occur.

    They make my mind a complete blur.

    I have tried ignoring them.

    No such luck.

    The sickening thoughts are as green as a buck.

    They make me want to yell.

  • Answers.

    I wish I could ask.

    I wish I knew.

    I guess not knowing, will just have to do...

    For now.

    I wish I had the answers.

    I wish I could just find out.

    But I know I will find the answers.

    Without a doubt.