Love v.s. love

i googled what love meant today.

i don't think anyone loves me.

wikipedia said that 

"Love encompasses a range of strong and positive emotional and mental states, from the most sublime virtue or good habit, or the deepest interpersonal affection, to the simplest pleasure."

will i ever Love?

can i ever Love?

i don't want to Love.

i want to love.

i want to love my own way.

as Taylor Swift once said,

"This love is good
This love is bad
This love is alive back from the dead"

i don't have Love 

or love

not yet.