Maybe in another lifetime

I know I can never have her like I want to

If I could even have her like that I wouldn't take it

Not anymore 

But maybe in another lifetime I would 

My heart only beats for her

So when she breaks it I flatline 

Over and over yet I kept coming back 

I can't keep being resuscitated time and time again 

But maybe in another lifetime I could 

I want her to hurt like she made me hurt 

Yet I could never bear to see her in pain

So I will double mine for both of us

But maybe in another lifetime I wouldn't have to 

I call her a genius and laugh at her jokes 

I always stand by her when she'll let me

Still every time she won't let me stay

But maybe in another lifetime she would 

I wish she could tell me how she feels about me

And I'd tell her how I do

That could be that, nothing more

With her that doesn't seem possible though 

But maybe in another lifetime it could be

I can't deny that I dream about her

That I get butterflies and freak out like a kid when she's around

I know I can't tell her that either 

But maybe in another lifetime I could 

Maybe one day she'll read this

I hope that she'll text me when she does

But I know that she'll just get upset 

She'll click away and shut me out again

Maybe in another lifetime she'd run to me and hug me

But just in case she wants to in this life, her number is still unblocked