melting over glimpses of you

Wishing I could,

stuck with I can’t

because of nerves

that refuse to say goodbye.

Heart is obsessed,

mind is stressed,

with my heart

yelling at my mind,

and my mind

yelling at my heart.

Heart’s going crazy,

ignoring my mind.

No telling me to stop,

it just knows I’m insane

while compiling scenarios

that my heart melts for.

But it doesn't need situations

to feel like it’s going to explode.

Just a thought

or a sight

is enough to crumble.

Not conflicted,

just nervous.

Just afraid.

Afraid of the unknown,

afraid of something that

might not even happen,

might not even exist.

And the decision has already been made

that I can’t do it,

I won’t do it.

Even though there’s a chance,

and maybe I will do it

but the nerves that need to leave,

figure it’s not their time.