obsessed

i get

obsessed

with little things

movies

singers

people

anything

for two to six months

i cant

think

about

anything 

else

like being tangled

in a warm blanket

at first

it’s safe

comforting

until i feel trapped

like my brain

can’t function 

on its own

like it needs something else

to keep it alive

like i’m not

good enough

on my own

towards the end

of my obsession

i start thinking

about what

life would be like

if I wasn’t 

obsessing

a hole opens up in my chest

i stop thinking

right now

it’s a singer

i bore my friends

family

anyone i talk to

because i can’t

last a conversation

without bringing him up

and i pour so much of my time

into listening to his music

watching his concerts

-recorded-

(i can’t see one

in person

which kills me

on the inside)

and nobody

will ever

understand

how

much

i

care

when I finally get over

an obsession

it’s like euphoria

for about a month

i can function on my own

until my brain finds

something else

to obsess over