Panic Attacks

I thought I had gotten better

Thought I had everything under control

I have everything under control

Right?

I thought they were gone

But they're right there

Sitting behind me

Breathing into my ear

Waiting for the worst time

To pounce

I thought I could breathe

In and out

I thought I was fine

I was good

I thought I could think clearly

Blue skies

Calm skies

But the clouds came back

Into my mind

It stormed

It poured

I couldn't think

I can't think

I thought my heart

Would beat normally

But it beats

Like a hummingbird

Too many

To fast

I thought I was safe

Safe from the attacks

The panic attacks