The Rise and Fall of A Star

We were rising.

Like twin flames,

Dancing in the darkness,

Spreading warmth to the stars.

In my mind,

You were a star,

Radiating your astronomical light onto me.

You were my star and my love,

And I basked in your infinite light.

But you wanted to be the sun;

You were always reaching for a new light,

Striving towards your next idealized figure,

Wishing to be perfect.

Our lives began to retrocede,

Worsening our circumstances rather than improving them.

You buried baggage till it was out of sight,

Hidden beneath your words.

But you were never good at coping,

And you were never good at pretending.

I wish there was something I could’ve done

To heal the gaping wounds in your heart,

But it’s too late.

            We were rising.

Like twin flames,

Dancing in the darkness.

            You were a star,

            My star and my love.

But you wanted to be the sun;

You were reaching for a light

That burned your beautiful, perfect soul,

Blackening it with agony and grief.

The memories are engraved in my mind,

Forcing me to remember the day forever.

You reached for the skies,

And for a moment

I saw galaxies in your eyes:

Visions of a new light,

A life lived in happiness.

And you jumped.

For a moment, you became the sun

My love, not even the brightest stars could outshine your light

Until your blinding radiance turned into a hopeless disaster

I watched

As your wings were torn off

And you fell

Into the malicious abyss of death.

-Lucy