waiting game

One of my best friends

a friendship that may never end.

Insanely close we got

and in my heart I have a spot

for you because you've been there

every single day

for you because you've cared for me

in every single way.

We almost reached that moment

where we may have wanted more,

but we decided no for now

before we could really soar.

But then she came along

and I felt in the wrong

for feeling something new,

unsure what to do

because I never got the chance

that I didn't know if I wanted to take.

Actually, I did,

but I decided it could wait.

Do I feel regret?

Yes, I do,

no, I don't.

But back then I had the opportunity

now I can't, now I won't.

Our friendship may be different,

but the closeness is still there.

It's just not how it used to be

in the cool, November air.

Do I really like you?

I don't know 

and maybe I never will.

Do I really like you?

No, I don't,

but a part of me is stuck, still.